💙Wore (Casual) Lolita💙 Snowy Day

Hi!
I just realised it has been a few months since I last posted any lolita coord. It´s not because of lack of trying - I just really suck at taking outfit pics, as you´ll see very soon. 
It started snowing yesterday, at least in Czechia. As I learned from my Slovak friends, they had a SNOW CALAMITY. I think one of them had even lost electricity because of it? 

Luckily, it´s not as bad here, just mildly uncomfortable. Olomouc is blessed with old coble stone streets, which may look pretty as hell, but it gets very slippery in winter. I guess I will have to continue living in my combat boots until it gets hotter :D. 

Also, while I spent yesterday playing DnD with my friends, far away from the city center, most of the population went to Advent Markets. They had just oficially started with the Christmas tree lighting ceremony. Our markets are quite famous, so I can imagine it was rather tight in here. I walked around it on my way from DnD session, it felt like the entire city went there. 
On the other side, as cheesy as it is, I´m getting into the festive spirit. My mom looooves Christmas and me and my sister got that from her. And Advent actually starts by the end of this week soooo...
Let´s pretend like I´m not way too early :D.

I put on this coord before my first morning seminar (seminars from 8AM should be illegal (╥_╥) ) but later updated accessories. I decided to be rather casual - I got this set of cups and teapot for Christmas two years ago. I mixed it with my VW mini orb, as I´m meeting with friend who loves it later today :D. I hope this will cheer him up a little bit, he already missed his train this morning so I can imagine he won´t feel as cheerful as me.
In my hair, I have only a big velveteen bow.

While doing my best in meeting casual lolita requirements I may have crossed into otome category. Either way, this outfit is very cosy so I remain happy.

I have the most amazing antique/lolita coat, however, I did not manage to photograph it very well. maybe some other day!

Also, I was finally able to pick up this velveteen bolero I got from vinted. It´s so pretty, I can´t wait to wear it.

I just came back from my thesis consultation. I´m much cleared on both theoretical and practiocal part of it. Even though it´s about Czech actress Adina Mandlova, more precisely her medial portrait in age of First Republic (1932 - 1938) I will get to write a lot about culture, journalist landscape and womanhood too, which is something I´m rather excited for. 
I really like her, she was very interesting woman. And very stylish, I almost went as her for Halloween :D.

This is her in Kristián, one of my favourite comedies. It´s a drawing-room comedy in true sense, everyone is either blase or a total screwball :D. What I like about Czechoslovak comedies of the time is that they allowed women to be totally crazy. General vibe of bohemistic comfortability is also nice, this was the last time Czechs were free and happy for next few decades. (Well, not in Kristián, we were already occupied by nazis at the time...)

Did you guys put up a Christmas tree yet, or is it just my work that already evokes a Christmas spirit? :D
See you soon!
Bye!

What´s up? (school, Halloween, Scream, etc.)

Hi!

I have been too caught up in my everyday life. Honestly, it has been exhausting, but also rewarding and strangely really fun :D. 
The first film with an actual, diegetic, sound I have ever worked on is premiering next week. I sent our posters to a copy centrum and it was such a strange feeling to see my name on it. I feel like an actual producer now. I feel like my degree is worth something :D.

Jokes aside, my degree is making me very nervous. I should finish next semester, but I don´t feel prepared. Partly because I don´t feel like I did a lot work on my final thesis. Hopefully I will feel better after next week, I will have my second consultation by then. 
In order to be "let" to graduate next semester, I have to come up with structure, methodology, write at least 10 standart pages and have at least two consultations. That means I´m like 1/3 through and I still ddin´t write shit. 
It´s difficult trying to stay motivated, as we´re the last class to have mandatory thesis. That´s right, kids next year are getting just an essay and oral exams :D. 
I can´t believe I actually want to continue for at least another two years. 

I hosted Rocky Horror Picture Show screening last month. I dressed up as Magenta, sadly I don´t have any better photos. You know I´m smashed here - this is my drunk pose. 
Only me and one other friend, Tom, have seen it before. As you may now, you can´t give alcohol and snack to group of... 13? 15? 20somethings and expect them to behave, so by the end of the movie we were atill the only ones with any idea of what´s going on. Still, I think that everyone had a blast.
We even managed to do a dance along, at least for Time Warp :D. There wasn´t much space for anything else.

This Halloween  I went as Gerard Way. Naturally. The only good photo I managed to get was with Klaus, who I managed to meet totally randomly. The person behind the costume was friend of an acquaintance who had no idea who is the author of Umbrella Academy :D. 

I went as Gerard thrice, but for last two parties I couldn´t. I got sick of the costume after three nights (and mornings) in a row, so for my fourth and fifth parties I got cheap horns and went as a devil. I spent way too much time on the make up, I have no idea how Gerard managed to do this so regurarly :D. 

The last party was my favourite, it was in Variace and and there was karaoke. I had a time of my life and I finally managed to make someone sing Scotty Doesn´t Know with me. Other than that, I will never not love Tak měls mě vůbec rád, Czech (and superior) version of Teenage Superstar. For someone who can´t sing I think I nailed it pretty well in the club.

I feel like I lived this Halloween to the fullest. I listened to The Cure a lot, watched some spooky movies and I even managed to read about funerals and death for my archeology class. I wish I managed to bake something good, but I didn´t get to spend too much time in kitched for past few months.
Also, I´m producing a theatre version of Scream. I´m not sure if I mentioned it before. Not only am I producing and playing in it, I also presented it for our faculty´s grant board. I got a mail yesterday, we are getting the money :D. I´m so happy. I´m doing my best to do a lot of activities this year - it´s my last one and I know too well that just academics aren´t getting me into grad school nor career.
I joined a lot of clubs and activities before too, but just now it´s starting to feel real and important.

Today, I picked up my sister from her university class in Ostrava and we went shopping. I decided to snap some pictures so you can get an idea of my day to day style. I hate taking pictures, both because of my terribly family curse (being unphotogenic) and because of the logistics. I don´t really have a great mirror nor camera nearby. Still, I tried. 

First, this very overexposed bag I crocheted earlier this year. It has stars and moon on it, sadly I couldn´t get a good photo without the light on. The owl is made by my mom, I think it fits the vibe rather well.

And here I´m, trying to take photos at our clamped flat. I got home after 3 weeks, finally :D. For some reason, all of my shifts are during weekends this month. We had national holiday this Monday and after that I decided to take a break.
I don´t have to go hard these days - this coats makes most of the work for me :D. I like pairing it with my crocheted scarf. It has glitters and a dragon in it, I will take better photos next time. Usually, I wear black short dress/skirt/shorts and shitton of accessories with it. 

Older photo from my apartment. Still not sure how I feel about the hair, but I liked my make-up here a lot.

I really did need a break - I had a very busy week that contained my first public performance (I was reading a part of alcoholic mother in a scenic reading :D) and concert of The Rasmus. I was sent there by magazine I for sometimes, but I think I´ll write a review here too. And maybeee The Offspring review, too :D.

Also, Olomouc has been looking rather mysterious lately. There´s a lot of mist during mornings, so I snapped these picture during my walk from work few days ago. I wasn´r really made for nightschifts to be honest, but luckily, there´s only 8 more of them to the end of this year.

I hope you had a nice Halloween and first half of November too :D.

Bye!
See you soon!

My First Vivienne Westwood

Hiii!!! o(≧▽≦)o

Two days ago, I had my birthday. I turned 22 on 22nd. If that´s not a sign, I don´t know what should be :D. I´m rather optimistic for this year - after all, I´m finishing bachelors degree, hopefully starting masters, and over all, I feel like I got rid of so many of my personal demons. 

I do tend to be a little bit hedonistic and overindulgent. That´s why both me and my (twin) sister dedicated entire month to our anniversary with the state of living. And since I´m finally doing alright financially, I decided to cross a box on my personal check-list.
I finally ordered something from my favourite brand! :D

Vivienne Westwood is everything but niche or underrated. I feel like almost every fashion girlie I know dreams of having a VW wedding dress - even I do. She´s just that iconic. Even as a punker/anarchist at 15 y.o. I gave her a pass. 
This year, I finally took a peek at Vinted. I´m nout boujee enough to buy her brand new, but second hand is not that much out of my price range. On the other hand there SO MANY SCALPERS. 
I spend hours studying the best ways how spot the fakes. It probably shouldn´t really matter that much to me - after all, it´s not like I´m giving money to anyone except seller, but it does. 
In fact, I spent so much time on this that some of orbs I liked got sold. 

By the end, I choose this sheer petit orb. It´s legit by all accounts and if it´s not, I can´t be angry because damn, that scalper got me convinced :D. 
I love it so much. I wear it almost every day. It´s so beautiful. Right now, my outfit is literally pleated skirt and oversized shirt but it feels special because of this necklace. 
I tried to treat myself this whole month, but nothing (outside all the hang outs with my friends) made me this happy. 
I choose this name because I do hope to get more jewelry in upcoming years - for example the classic, big sturdy orb. Still, it´s not a collection that is going to grow that fast, it´s still way too expensive to become an impsulse buy :D.

Did you catch the new Gorillaz album? I´m so excited for it! I feel like this great year for all the Gorillaz fans. They are even touring again - they are coming to Czechia and Slovakia. Sadly, their concerts are going to be during festivals and while I do love a good festival, I really just want o see them. Of course, there other good bands too - Rock for People have Gorillaz, Limp Bizkit, Babymetal and Iron Maiden. Sadly, they also have rather expensive tickets. 
We will see how this is going to end, but I think I will try to get one day ticket just to see Gorillaz. 

Also, Madmans Espirit are coming Bratislava next year, but I´m not sure if I´ll come. This time the problem would be with transportation, Bratislava is really not that close. 

To complete my trifecta of music, I tried which britpop band are you quiz.

Your Result:

Pulp

You got Pulp, you horny son of a bitch. That's it, you're horny! You're probably gay but in an artsy and sophisticated way. You can also be a bit pretentious but you're on your right to be, you're so smart and accomplished! Song you definitely need to listen to: Do you remember the first time? To feel a bit nostalgic.

I feel like they got me right away :D. 


How is the rest of you doing? 
Are you planning anything for Halloween? I have booked three Halloween parties so far - right now, my costume of choice is Revenge Era Gerard Way. 

Bye! See you soon!

Emily Temple Cute Appreciaton Post

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I took unexpected break from this blog as the semester has me beaten down. I´m actually working on a post about it, but in the meantime, why not writing about something nicer? :D

I adore Emily Temple Cute, it´s one of my favourite lolita brands even if I usually slide more towards goth and old school. I guess it´s something about their demure cuteness and nostalgic designs that makes me look towards new Instagram post every day. 
They remind me of british cartoons and shows I watched as a kid. When I was little and longed to be sent to boarding school somewhere in England, this is what I wore in my imagination. And, of course, now that I´m older, I love the idea of sitting in our university library, studying for my thesis and feeling cute and cosy in ETC. 
A lot of these are rereleases, so I won´t point it out at each individual piece.
There´s a lot of stripes, tartan and darker colours in their new pieces. My favourite one from this autumn is Chocolate Sleevel Dress.

First of all, chocolate is something I´m always craving. Second, I love the realisation. It looks elegant, while also beign cute. I´m a real sucker for prints that feature a literal bars of chocolate. In case of this JSK, I also really enjoy the cut - it´s simple, but the print is rather busy and I like the peter pan collar. 

And there´s also a jacket! I looove jackets in lolita coords. The mix of sweet and bussiness brings me great joy. This series comes in dark, milk and strawberry - darker brown, lighter brown and baby pink. All of them move print to different teritory.

We will stay at the sweet territory with WhipCake. Something about the name bothers me a little bit, but otherwise it´s perfect. Most of the releases I choose today are all over prints. I´m not sure how I would call this one (horizontal?), but I don´t care that much, as it works perfectly. When I look at this, I can feel the layers of whipped cream, cake, strawberries and another whipped cream.
It makes me wish there were more tiramisu themed series - or any. Maybe I will design one? :D
The small details really make this dress - the ribon in straps, buttons and the lace around them, I even enjoy the ribbon that adds a lot of visual interest. I feel like this dress can be greatly dressed up or down, worn both in winter and summer without looking out of place.

I really like how the layout is arranged. You can see this perfectly in the black colourway. It´s my favourite one, maybe even to the point of being a dream dress.
It also comes in pink and red. I feel like the red one is the sweetest, it looks like it´s filled with jam. 

(This review is starting to make me hungry.)

I cannot pass the opportunity to talk about another chocolatey dress. Chocolate Maker is a real ode to the sweet treats - there´s a bar, there are pralines, bonbons, cookies... I adore the way it´s put together, with all the different colours. 
I also think it´s really interesting how they show up on all the colourways - it looks completely different on white, green tea, choco mint and dark.

The colours are a little bit different than the original release from 2022, and this time it features a skirt too. I think I like either white or green tea the best.

Look at this and tell me that Ribbon Apple doesn´t scream autumn, I dare you. The colours, the tartan, the apples - you could definitely catch me watching Gilmore Girls and Teen Wolf, ultimate autumn shows, in this. 
Outside of many other things, such as the amazing colours, I find the usage of ribbon in this series very pleasant. I like it both in details and in the print - the apple peels are supossed to transform into one.

BonCroissant is pretty simple. The print is heavy with pastry and sometimes there cutlery, butter and jams. With JSK, it has pretty simple cut too, outside of the scallop hem and  thin ribbon belt. I think that is the reason why it works so well - you can make it into so many different outfits and styles. 
Also, can you imagine not even sligtly liking croissants? It´s absolutely not my favourite pastry, but it´s certainly one of the best looking ones.
Also, the tiny jams and butters are so cute.

Another thing I enjoy about ETC is that they can make great novelty/funny pieces. For example, PASTA!! and Tasty Labels.

PASTA!! is not only inspired by (well) pasta, but also Italy as a whole - that´s why there´s italian ribbon and why there are another typical components of mediterranean cuisine featured. I also think that the colour names are so cute - cheese, basil, tomato. It´s so amazingly campy.
While researching I also founf out that Lief also has a pasta series - Angel Pasta. That one is a little less on the nose, yet still really cute.

As for tasty labels, the print is made of mix of condiments and other kitchen stuff. There´s a lot of colours, but their arrangement and cut of the pieces is rather simple. I think your enjoyement of the series is based on your feelings about walking around with ketchup and mayo on your skirt.

So far, all of those have been prints, but I also enjoy simpler ETC designs. In general, I prefer either solid pieces or simpler patterns in my coords. For that reason, I´m head over heels with Monotone dress. It´s kind of an OP that gets lost in a season - it´s simple and there have been a lot of similar pieces over years. 
Still, I must love the cut, the sleeves, the collar, the little buttons and the belt detail. All of these make this dress stand out in my opinion. It also comes in gray, but I think it´s perfect in black - it´s everything I would want for a day to day coord. I´m not sure if I´ll ever find it second hand AND shipping from Europe (I´m not paying customs), but if I´ll you´ll see me in this a lot. 

Biggest suprsise (for me, at least) was this dainty Twinkle Drop OP. It comes in bright blue too, but I feel like yellow version is perfect. It´s something a fairy would wear. I love the choice of fabric - it looks so soft and airy. 
This must be 100% the cutest dress for summer.

Are you enjoying fall? 
I don´t feel very original about the fact that this is my favourite part of the year. I don´t, however, care about originality, because it´s best time of the year - since school started, there´s so much to do, the world is so beautiful, and it has never been cosier to just sit home and drink coffee. 
All the cafes in Olomouc have seasonal drinks now - there´s a lot of Pumpkin Spice, walnuts and toffees, but also some experiments with matcha. And hot chocolate. 
Dear god, hot chocholate. I´m back in Karviná for this weekend, so we went for the best chocolate in both the town and the world  with my sister (Denda) yesterday. I was soo excited for this - it´s only 70 CZK (around 2,9 EUR) but it´s delicious, filled with whipped cream, topping, sprinkles and mini marshmallows. 
After that, Peťa and Adam came over and we played Bang. I won twice :D. After stressfull week back in uni, this is exactly what I needed. 
For the night, instead of our usual document we played the Sims. Of course, most of the time and thought went into our characters, as Denda wanted to play for the two of us :D. We didn´t discover how to make our Sims sisters/twins (is that one ven possible) yet but at least we have a jobs. 

Today, I´m heading back to Olomouc for my Rocky Horror Picture Show Party. Originally it was only a screening because we have to watch it for a seminar, but since I love that movie, things got a little bit out of hand. 
I´m excited for the rest of the month, too - we (me and Denda) will have birthday party with our friends next weekend, then we will go to Vienna, and by next week, there will be Halloween :D. I´m going to a cabin in Beskydy with ESN, a student organisation I joined this year. On 1st, however, I´m coming back to Karviná - Adam is holding a Haloween party.
This year, hopefully, I will finally arrange one too, me and my flatmate Zaira have been talking about this already. I originally wanted to be Revenge era Gerard Way this year but there´s not way I´m buying skinny jeans.
Outside of that, Zaira is watching one spooky movie every day this October. I have only seen the Last Hellraiser and Black Phone with her. I really enjoyed the latter, but it was impossible to be scarred of shirtless Ethan Hawke for me.

Do you guys have any plans for Halloween?
See you soon!

Bye! ♡ (˘▽˘>ԅ( ˘⌣˘)

Tiny haul, new perspectives and new nails ♥️🖤

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Today was absolutely stellar! I catched up with my friends from Aurora over shopping spree. 

I have wanted a lip oil since forever - I used to love lipsticks back in high school, but they proved to be a little bit impractical. While I plan on coming back to them, lip oil feels a little more manageable. 

This one is a nice plum colour. I got it in Hebe, which is this Polish drug store. It has m better prices than Rossman, Teta and D&M and it carries a lot of korean cosmetics. I didn't get anything korean, instead I went for Ziaja aloe face toner. I will give you review later, but I heard only nice things about this vegan brand, so I'm already excited :D.

I try to be more careful with my choices of cosmetics - for example, my only perfume is Karma by Lush. It reminds me of 70s.

I also managed to add something to my CD collection. I'm planning to grow it as much as possible. I think I'll make a separate article fort this and my discman, I got it on Vinted for a great price :D.

TNT is a music shop that I've frequented since high school - there is not a lot of brick stores with CDs and LPs in Czechia so it always felt cool here. If you ever get to Ostrava (why, I might ask) you should check it out here. They have really nice vinyl collection too - I found Cat Stevens, Cabaret, Jesus Christ Superstar and more here.

This time I got Dookie, Three Cheers for Sweet Revenge and (What's the Story) Morning Glory. Those are three of my favourite bands. I really want to get Definitely Maybe next, but I'll be happy with anything else. I also want to buy The Now Now by Gorillaz, but it's too pricy everywhere. 

Other than that, I have shitton of Beatles and some classic rock and metal from my dad. 

We also went for dessert and matcha. I don't think I have ever tasted strawberry matcha latte as good as this one. The coffee shop is called Laskomilo, it has really cosy vibe. The desserts were great too.

Both of my friends are PhDs at this point and they are in Aurora council. I wasn't sure if I wanted to continue with Aurora, which is this site of partner universities in Europe. Actually, I knew I would love to, but between my final year of university, production of Scream for student theatre, thesis and work, I wasn't sure if I had enough time and energy. 

I do. I really want to continue in representing my university. also, next conference should be at Reykjavik and I really want to go there for UPOLs money :D.

Other than that, I'm realising how much I need a gap year. I plan to either volunteer abroad with European Solidarity Corps, go on Erasmus+ Internship or both. 

My lovely friend Klárka, who also happens to be my bandmate and part of mcrmy, made me those MCR inspired nails. They are her first set for anyone who isn't her. I love them :D.

I'm keeping them for my Italian vacation but I already love them so much.

I'll have three shifts in  row now BUT I'll finally get to see my favourite couple, Matěj And Maki this Friday. We're going to gym, wish me well. 

Also, my sister made muffins while I was away. She told me I can get one in the kitchen. To her horror, I unwittingly devoured uncooked one ಥ⁠‿⁠ಥ.

How's your summer? 🌞 

See you soon! Bye

They Made Me Work For Free (Indiana Jones Didn´t Prepare Me At All)

 Hii!
I have to say, this was not my first archaeologic excavation or my first unpaid internship. It was however my first unpaid archaelogic excavation. These manadatory three weeks of hard work kept me off the internet - I woke up at 6 AM dug up to 15:15 relaxed a little bit, fell asleep and repeted. 
I tried to go out during those days, but fot the first half I was sooo dead I kept being unable to even crochet properly :D.

The site is near my apartment, I actually worked there for a few days during last summer. Most of the other workers are my classmates from department of history, which is nice. For the first two weeks, we were digging this bore. I think we barely got under recent layers in my first week.
Since archaeology doesn´t really care about your gender and our only guy in the team was kind of a dick, me and Daja ended up doing a lot of work over our strenght limits. My hands and back still hurt from 7 consecutive hours of shoveling and I will forever be afraid of wheelbarrows. Have you ever tried carrying one that is full of dirt up the hill on a wooden "highway" that keeps slipping under your boots? That was my highway to hell. 

Both of my soles gave up during the first day. I didn´t have any better ones, so instead of trying to make it in my go go boots, I decided to see how long I can survive in them. They are getting a viking funeral, they reliably carried me through the whole thing. 

We were right under Náměstí republiky, one of the busiest tram stop in Olomouc. The quiet peace we had was stark contrast to life above us. None of those people knew that they are only few meters from such an interesting site.

We manifested rain a lot. Pair of my classmates was lucky enough to have rainy week, and since our boss counted it as day of practice, they really only dug for two non-consecutive weeks. We had a lot of cloudy days, but it was never bad enough to end earlier than 15:00, which isn´t much of improvement.
I still had to go to work during this and let me tell you, you definitely should sleep between several hours of physical work, 12 hours night shift and another bunch of physical work. 
On our last week, we decided that we don´t want rain anymore - it only made everything harder. I felt like an earth worm in wet dirt when it rained just a little bit.

Our last week was spent under our original square. The chef told us the we can decide what to do and she will just consult. Both me and Daja panicked a lot. We needed some assistance. 
I wasn´t really sure what we are looking at. There was a fire pit a lot of bones, but eras were readable only from ceramics and none of them felt distinct enough. Then, in our last hour, another supervisor came and explained that we are at the 10th century AD and this is Great Morava. It felt amazing - we were the first people to stand on this ground after 1000 years! (Funilly enoguh, first bite of 21st century this ground got was pop punk.)

It wasn´t all bad. I got buff down there, and I realised what I actually want to do once I get out - read, party and start a band. I already did all of those during last few days, but I was also excited to finally have time and energy for writing. 

This was one of the hardest thing I ever had to do for school and since I couldn´t choose a date I was unable to go to vacation both with my family and my friends few days later but well, at least I´m closer to my diploma. 

How are you guys enjoying summer? And what was the weirdest thing you had to for school?

Edit few days later: I totally forgot to mention why we were so pissed off and unmotivated most of the time. While we didn´t get paid, our university did. The reason why we can´t choose our own excavation is probably because they are only sending us to places that will pay THEM directly for our labour. We lost at least 600 EUR throught this.
Our university isn´t even transparent - I had to do some digging and investigation to find out and comfirm my suspicions. They have been doing this for quite some time, and no, quality of our education doesn´t really reflect this. 

Slightly Incomplete Ranking of All My Part Time Jobs

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My friends always tell me that I´m probably the most over-part-timed-worked person they know. I didn´t really believe them, until I started writing all of this down and well, seems like I don´t have commitment issues only in relationships. 
I always yearned for financial security and independence on my parents, which is why I landed my first summer job right out of elementary school. I do think I could have done better choices, because I feel like I could have been more at peace if I didn´t go throught all of those toxic enviroments, stressfull tasks and demanding costumers. On the other hand, if I didn´t  have them, I would´t be able to afford my lifestyle. 
I´m ranking those from worst to best. I chose only jobs where I actually got paid and lasted more than a day. Also, a lot of those positions are from unnamed Western Theme Park. I hope you won´t consider it cheating - I did a lot of work there and I really want to talk about it more someday. That´s why I´m leaving out some of the other odd jobs out.


Kitchen Staff in a Pension
Through high school, I spent most of my time either commuting or in classroom, so the only part times I would get were seasonal during summer. This was my third one. Stationed in beautiful forest of Šumava, it had everything I needed - accomodation and few hundred kilometers of distance from my hometown. Someone once told me that person is never as dumb as at 17, and I was probably the dumbest 17 year old around because I didn´t really think enough to ask the working hours beforehand. It was at least 16 hours two days in row, then two days off. It doesn´t sound as brutal, but it was killing me. The job was very stressful, the pension was in a middle of nowhere and there was something deeply wrong with me already, because it didn´t take too long for me to start breaking down. Again.
It was supossed to last one month. That one month was July, which ended with big three days long festival where all of us had to work for about 20 hours a day. I knew that would probably kill me, so I faked death in my family and fucked off. I didn´t feel alright for the rest of the summer.
That was my last kitchen job and start of realisation that I might not be alright :D.

Bistro Staff  at WTP
I have been trying to outrun my hometown since I was about 5, but summer of the unnamed Western Theme Park (WTP) have been my first succesful attempt. It was me, 16 y.o., and this one friend I don´t talk to anymore against the whole world. I wish there was anything else, because this sucked so much. I was supossed to work at front desk, however they employed too much of us (3 students total), so I was placed at this bistro instead. And a slushie shop. And souvenirs. I did basically everything. I would love to say that I hated every second, because it was terrible and to this day a great topic of conversation, but somehow, I was having fun. Not at work - this bistro was the first time I had to take crying breaks. Not only because there was neverending line of tasks and customers, all of this in the most unhyginienic enviroment, but it was also very toxic place and the chef hated me.
My drinking started here I think. 


Pizzeria Staff
My first legal job! It was at this Czech pizza chain and the chef was my aunt, but that didn´t mean I was paid well. Or at least minimally. Even in 2025 their hourly wages are under Czech legal minimum, so you can imagine that it wasn´t much better in 2018/2019. I think I gout around 3.5 euro hourly?
At least I didn´t really have to do any of the cooking here - I washed the dishes. cut vegetables, marinated meat, but mainly worked with pizza dough. It was boring, but it lacked the stress of all of my other kitchen jobs. My sister and our best friend still work here, and they still hate is as much as when we were 15.

Slurpie & Pop Corn Seller at WTP
This was my second job at WTP. First day was interesting - I came there, chef showed me the bare minimum and half an hour later I was already teaching newcoming staff. I didn´t have to anything other than tap the slushies and serve pop corn, which wouldn´t be so bad if it wasn´t for the customers and lack of hygienne.
Did you know that pop corn in theme parks is usually never thrown out? Even when something gross, like a bee taking a dive, happens. I had to take out that bee, which wasn´t even dead yet, out with a box and then continue serving like it never happened. I couldn´t even change the stash.
As for the slush, suprising amount of people are going to argue about colours of their drink. And when I say argue, I mean yell at a 16 y.o. cashier until she shows them that really, raspberry flavour can be blue. 

Cheese Seller (both at Christmas markets and off-season at mall)
Selling cheese at Christmas markets is nothing like selling it in the mall. It´s stressful and hard at the markets because you´re going to freeze for 6 - 13 hours, all of this with neverending lines of costumers, but it´s also rather unsuprevised. If you fuck up, it´s between you and your god. Also, you won´t have to do anything illegal. 
I was selling cheese at the local Christmas markets for two years before I landed gig for the same company at nearby mall at the end of 2024. First of all, the manager of that one store was, and probably still is, trigger angry Trump loving homophobic bitch. Second of all, you wouldn´t believe how much time I had to spend washing the mold off our cheese. Yes, when our cheese got moldy, we had to scrub it off, and if it got really bad, it was treated with vinegar. That´s it. There was really no wasting.
I should have reported them, but then I wouldn´t see a penny and money was tight at the time. 
Also, I have never been treated worse by costumers. 

Shopping Assistant at H&M
Alrighty job. Terrible environment. I worked there right before college and I could already feel the toxicity from miles apart. The thing is, it wasn´t even issue of management, but of all the other part time workers. Also, it was at Ostrava and while I didn´t mind commuting for high scholl (at least I thought so, now I can´t magine waking up at 5:30 everyday ever again) I realized how much I didn´t want to spend summer between Ostrava and Karviná, so I left H&M and stayed at my other Ostrava job, at second hand warehouse.

Girl for Everything at this one specific Festival
I love festivals, and after all of the volunteering I did, I was more than happy to land a paying gig. I took a week off from my bartending job (it was the summer of 2024). That day, I left bar at 6 AM, crying and ready to die, luckily my hysterical sobbing woke up my roommates at the times and both of them were supportive enough to actually get me to the train to Ostrava. I was supposed to bartend at this event, however when I came I did everything but tend the bar. They sent me cleaning, to do debaras, made me do my best as hostess, sent me to wash the dishes, etc., and that was only my first day. This festival of everything visual, from books to fashion, lasted for five days. There was not a lot of haggling about shifts - they asked me what days I can come, I said all of them, but I didn´t really expect them to make me work through the whole thing. 
Well, they did expect me to come every morning for more than 12 hour shifts, with no food guaranteed and only 30 minutes of lunch break - or theoretical 30 minutes. As soon as some higher up saw me sitting without food, I go yelled at for fooling around. They continued to exploit me, and the rest of the staff. Some people actually walked out and I´m not suprised - one girl cried on my shoulder because she got her nails done and bought this really cute black dress, all for this job, and she got sent to kitchen. 
Marketing of this whole thing was really botched too, so there was probably more workers than guests.

Front Desk Assistant at WTP
I got to sit in a shadowy room, but people yelled at me a lot, usually for WTP´s return policies. I din´t hate this as much, partly because I knew that they would be able to beat me through the small window. I could choose the music that played there somethimes. 

Souvenir Staff at WTP
I had to stand for hours because sitting down would be "disrespectful". Other than that, it was just boring. No one yelled at me here.

Ghoul at Haunted Castle at WTP
This sound kinda cool but it was actually very boring. Owner of WTP got his hands on this old chateau and ran with it. It resulted in the lamest Haunted Castle ever. Everythng was super cheap and I was the only living part of exhibition - which meant that I got a cape, a mask, laid in a coffin and then jumped out on costumers. I didn´t get rest of the costume or anything, so if I left visitors to linger on me enough they usually noticed my bright pink sneakers. 
Also, when elevator didn´t work, I had to guide people down to the exit. Which meant that I scared them, left them to run for a few meters to the end of the room, where they realized that t he elevator is closed and then I took off my mask and explained our situation. It was exactly as awkward as it sounds. I (or we) got lost the first time I had to guide them out.

Air Brush Tattooist  at WTP
I don´t really mind children, really. I do mind their parents. If it wasn´t for them, both this and looking after trampolines would be alright. This way, there was always someone needy, in a hurry and outright insulting to their offspring for their choice of tattoo. I was suprised by how gendered both colours and shapes can get. 

There was also surprising amount of drunk adults wanting sprakly butterflies. I love that for them. 

Edible Bugs Seller
During the Advent of 2023 I held three jobs - bartending, selling cheese and this. How did I manage this and school? I didn´t sleep. It got so bad once when I had 12 hours with cheese, another 12 at the bar and then this that I just laid down on the floor and slept. And this wasn´t some little shop, this was a stall in the middle of the mall. I risked getting fired or something, but I was really very tired. 
Other than that it was fun watching people tasting the bugs, mostly daring children and their horrified parents. We didn´t get a lot of costumers, which was fine with me. 

Warehouseman for a thrift store
Other than the fact I had to commute for more than 90 minutes, this was a fine job. I didn´t have to communicate with costumers, I could try on anything that catched my eye and the other workers were a lot of fun. Going through the donations could get a little gross, but that´s to be expected. 

Music Journalist
This would be way higher if I didn´t have to go to Brno or Prague for all the concerts. I really liked getting deeper into the music bussiness and having a chance to see a lot of interesting bands for free, on the other hand, it also got me into some dangerous situations. While I still struggle to feel in danger, I know that I shouldn´t spend so much time on train stations (and other standed places) alone at 3 AM or something is actually going to happen to me. Also, I stuggle with my writing style and deadlines a little too tight, which is why I´m taking a break right now. 

Archaeologist
How many jobs did I hold between 2023 and 2024? Well, this excavation was definitely one of them. I had a few shifts during summer. It was a lot of physical labour, but I liked the collective and it was always so exciting to actually find something. Human settlement in Olomouc is a very old one and it was fascinating to get into history of town that has been so welcoming to me. I´m coming back this summer - for 3 weeks of unpaid internship. I didn´t have much choice, it´s required by my school, but it´s probably going to be alright.

Bartender 
This is something I have very difficult relationship with. I struggle with moderation and mood swings, which can be a big problem when I have access to alcohol. It was not just about the access here - on the first day they told us that we will not handle this job sober. Six months later, I got into habit of drinking more or less daily and another colleague adviced me to get out as soon as possible, because no one managed to get out after one year here. 
I was in danger often, but there was also this sense that someone was always looking out for me. 
Also, I worked for a very popular student spot. I got to know a lot of my friends there. This resulted in some great stories. It also threw me as close to mental breakdown as I have ever been. I´m not sure if the waves of unrelenting anxiety I´m so prone of started here, but I definitely think I should have talked to someone about this. I still should, actually. 

Hotel Front Desk Clerk
I´m here right now. This is my third graveyard shift in a row, but I´m going to get a week off after this. Other than the fact that shifts are 12 hours long and that I sometimes get little sleepy, I love this job. I still get those waves of anxiety, but I´m managing throught them way better. Mainly because I feel like I´m doing pretty good job here. 

I´ve got a new phone. Again, it´s my third this year, but the first I actually had to pay for, so it´s not that bad? Hopefully? I have never been this bad with anything, I hope this one is gonna make it for next few years.
Olomouc looked rather pretty on my walk back home yesterday, so I made some photos. This phone finally has worthy camera.

Lately, I have been conspirating a lot about Oasis and My Chem. Not in a weird way, more in a desperade hope of European tour :D. The only concert I have planned right now are Offspring + Simple Plan in Prague and I´m sooo excited it´s not even possible. 
For some reason, concerts give me the worst FOMO. 

See you soon again!

So close... yet so far (crying about my dream dress)

 Hii!

Have I ever mentioned how much I LOVE Český Krumlov series by Innocent World? It feels like yearning for a place you remember fondly. And I really do remember Krumlov specifically with a great fondness, but I will not bore anyone with that one time I was forced to work 16 hours per schift in a restaurant at 17, with no way to run away. Or that one time a boat run me over. 
(I swear, I do have non-traumatic memories.)
Even besides that, it´s just georgeous and so specific. I don´t think there´s any dress that similar to this stylisation of print and mix of colours. 

It´s no suprise that many Czech lolitas yearn for this dress. And right now, it´s on Lace Market. For quite an affordable price of 90 Euros. And it´s it in Germany, which is just a few kilometers away. Why did no one buy it yet?
More specifically, me?

The cut and colourway of the piece in question are actually my favourites. The lila sky with empire cut make it so dreamy. Sadly, I don´t really have anything lila. Honestly, I don´t really feel comfortable in those colours. 
Alright then. I can coord it with white and reds, I can live with those. 
Well, how often would I actually wear this dress? Pastels make me look washed out, and I have this thing with dark clothing going on. I cannot stress enough how much I don´t like wearing light colours. (Well, it´s not like anyone is forcing me.)

Second of all, I love the cut. I really do. I actually have something similar - my Argyle Check OP by BtSSB. It´s a waistless sack, but luckily it has waist ties, which make it work rather well in my opinion. 
This dress isn´t very tit friendly. From what I heard (the seller is in our local Discord group and answered some questions), anything bigger that 90 cms is not going to fit into the boob area, therefore ending up in the waist. 
I hope I´m not the only one who finds this to sound rather pregnant. For past few (and next few too, probably) years, I have been balancing just around the 90 centimeters. I can take a risk and hope for the best, but I don´t really want to. I would just probably end up sad.
It would be terrible situation for the dress too - while any article of fashion can be art I do feel like clothing should be worn. It would be terrible to just keep it in my closet while slowly tranforming into Smeagul, unable to actually style in any interesting way. 

I´m little bit sad anyway, but at least I saved myself some money and did something more productive with them. I ordered the Bodyline Vampire OP that kept following me on Vinted.

It´s cute, the cut looks amazing and it´s perfectly withnin my comfort zone. I will probably continue to yearn for Český Krumlov OP (in Naruto chasing Sasuke kind of way, because it is going to be dramatic), but in the meanwhile, I will look like a gothic princess. 
And if that isn´t the point of living, then what is?

See you soon!
Bye!

Ultimate Derek Zoolander Summer List

 Hello (˵ ¬ᴗ¬˵)
 
For past week, it finally felt like spring (unusually log one this time) was finally over and summer started. I don´t like summer that much as a season - it´s too hot, bugs and cyclists everywhere, but I love it as a vibe. Everything feels possible in summer. 
With all the stress of the school year, I really want to only one thing - to rest and be really, really, ridiculously good looking. To just hang out with my homies, drink orange mocha frappuccino, dance in the pouring benzin. 
Here are some things are hopefully going to happen this summer, because I´m set on being a lazy slob and being held publicly accountable is the only thing that can stop me. 

To Do

Start crocheting a tote bag

Get better at French 

✶ Learn at least one new time
✶ Engage with more French media
✶ Read Asterix without a dictionary
Star learning Japanese again

✶ Master hiragana 
✶ Star katakana
✶Get to A2
Go camping
Hike some archeological sites
Design my next tattoo
Get more work-appropriate clothing

Try

Calico hair

To find the best strawberry matcha latte in Olomouc

At least three new matcha latte flavours

Tiramisu anything from Starbucks

To be nicer to costumers

To finish that crochet vest

To finish any otome game that isn´t demo

To update this blog 

To get more into pixel art

To enjoy the mandatory unpaid 3 week archeological excavation ߹𖥦߹

Watch

More films by Satoshi Kon
At least 25 mandatory films for my finals

Freaks and Geeks
Akira again
My Own Private Idaho with my sister

I should get over my irrational avoidance of Akira Kurosawa´s films

Anything Wim Wenders

Listen 

Actually get into Paganini, he doesn´t deserve the shallowness I approach him with

Some new nu goth bands
Fresh pop-punk acts for 2025

Brit-pop outside of Oasis and Blur
Any v-kei band that started in 2020s

The entire Offspring and Simple Plan discography to get ready for their concert

Read

Next 200 chapters od Berserk

Neighbourhood Story
Tore Renberg´s books that aren´t The Man Who Loved Yngve

Naruto again, this time hopefully to the end

All the literary sources I listed for my bachelor thesis

All books about my 1930s Czechoslovak cinema I can find (still for my thesis)
Farewell My Concubine
Anything related to archeology, I really want to pass those exams too

More fanfics

There also some things I would like to avoid, but actually making good decisions wouldn´t be very Derek Zoolander of me. 

I think that those are quite achievable goals. Let´s hope for the best! 

I´m writing this from my work. I didn´t even know I had a shift today, until my boss messaged me what would I like for dinner (we get food from nearby restaurant). I had to double check our shifts and actually, yes, I had to get my ass from my family apartment to the Olomouc ( ._. )"". 
I´m really lucky he worked today, no one else would check me. I really need to be more carefull, I like this job and would hate to underperform/get fired.
Also, I finally know where I´m gonna dig this year! Because apparently all of as descent from millionaires, we have to do three weeks of unpaid labour at archeological site of our professor´s choice. I´m probably going to Valašské Meziříčí. There were not a lot of other choices, and this one was closest. because I will need to work throught this. Three weeks off work isn´t really possible for me, so I´m gonna be an archaeologist during the day and receptionist during the night. When am I gonna be a well rested person? 
Only time will show. I will possibly die, hehe.

So until next time! ( • ᴗ - ) ✧

Musical Spotlight; Fun While It Lasted; The ultimate break-up (and down) band

 Fun While It Lasted is pop-punk through and through. From their unmatched energy to whiny vocals, it would be hard not to get at least a little bit angsty.
They remind me of that one long summer between high school and college. I was young(er only by two years, but dear God, what a significant two years). Life was one big party (and night one big club), I was at the top of the world and desperatelly in love. Of course, I got my heart broken and I wish I discovered those guys back then - crying during Double Broken Heart would have been so cool, as I got my little black heart broken twice during that summer. By the same guy. 

(This way, I listened to My Chem for few weeks straight, which is still cool, but  I didn´t have to be such a stereotype.)

FWIL has a strong presence on social media and you should follow them before they become next Blink-182, which is a subtle foreshadowing. They succeed at the most Gen Z discipline - being relatable. I feel like most of us have friends just like them. From the environment they film at to their dynamics a demeanor, they feel real. Quite lived-in, so to say, which are words that can be used for apartments, skinwalkers trying to asimilate into human society and public personas. 
Here is probably kicking in my inner producer and capitalist, but I have troubles believing anything I see at social media. However, I enjoy the music, I enjoy the presentation and therefore I believe what I see. Even when I compare it to some Czech "pop-punk" projects (mostly just pop with tiny bit of angst and one guy witth guyliner) that try to look authentic FWIL manage to win. 
Why? They really look like they have a lot of fun together. 

Few weeks ago they released their biggest single yet - Tom Delonge. It was very well received, as you can see from all the positive comments. I will not spoil it for everyone, but the lyrics are super fun with all the nostalgic references and I really liked the cover art - it stays true to the DIY punk roots, as its made by band´s friends. 

My top track is definitely Double Broken Heart, as I alluded before. It has all my favourite aspects of pop-punk - I can relate to it, it´s a little bit off-standish and there´s this rawness that cannot be duplicated by anyone who is not on fully on it. 

I think it´s great that bands like this are still playing somewhere - it shows that the scene is not dead, and that if someone whines about lack of interesting music in 2025, they are just not looking for it. 
To sum it up, if you crave something authentic to kick you out of bed before lecture, or before 12 hours grave shift followed by exam from subject you barely even remember atending, this might be the band for you.