Wednesday, 25 June 2025

So close... yet so far (crying about my dream dress)

 Hii!

Have I ever mentioned how much I LOVE Český Krumlov series by Innocent World? It feels like yearning for a place you remember fondly. And I really do remember Krumlov specifically with a great fondness, but I will not bore anyone with that one time I was forced to work 16 hours per schift in a restaurant at 17, with no way to run away. Or that one time a boat run me over. 
(I swear, I do have non-traumatic memories.)
Even besides that, it´s just georgeous and so specific. I don´t think there´s any dress that similar to this stylisation of print and mix of colours. 


It´s no suprise that many Czech lolitas yearn for this dress. And right now, it´s on Lace Market. For quite an affordable price of 90 Euros. And it´s it in Germany, which is just a few kilometers away. Why did no one buy it yet?
More specifically, me?



The cut and colourway of the piece in question are actually my favourites. The lila sky with empire cut make it so dreamy. Sadly, I don´t really have anything lila. Honestly, I don´t really feel comfortable in those colours. 
Alright then. I can coord it with white and reds, I can live with those. 
Well, how often would I actually wear this dress? Pastels make me look washed out, and I have this thing with dark clothing going on. I cannot stress enough how much I don´t like wearing light colours. (Well, it´s not like anyone is forcing me.)

Second of all, I love the cut. I really do. I actually have something similar - my Argyle Check OP by BtSSB. It´s a waistless sack, but luckily it has waist ties, which make it work rather well in my opinion. 
This dress isn´t very tit friendly. From what I heard (the seller is in our local Discord group and answered some questions), anything bigger that 90 cms is not going to fit into the boob area, therefore ending up in the waist. 
I hope I´m not the only one who finds this to sound rather pregnant. For past few (and next few too, probably) years, I have been balancing just around the 90 centimeters. I can take a risk and hope for the best, but I don´t really want to. I would just probably end up sad.
It would be terrible situation for the dress too - while any article of fashion can be art I do feel like clothing should be worn. It would be terrible to just keep it in my closet while slowly tranforming into Smeagul, unable to actually style in any interesting way. 

I´m little bit sad anyway, but at least I saved myself some money and did something more productive with them. I ordered the Bodyline Vampire OP that kept following me on Vinted.



It´s cute, the cut looks amazing and it´s perfectly withnin my comfort zone. I will probably continue to yearn for Český Krumlov OP (in Naruto chasing Sasuke kind of way, because it is going to be dramatic), but in the meanwhile, I will look like a gothic princess. 
And if that isn´t the point of living, then what is?

See you soon!
Bye!

Thursday, 12 June 2025

Ultimate Derek Zoolander Summer List

 Hello (˵ ¬ᴗ¬˵)
 
For past week, it finally felt like spring (unusually log one this time) was finally over and summer started. I don´t like summer that much as a season - it´s too hot, bugs and cyclists everywhere, but I love it as a vibe. Everything feels possible in summer. 
With all the stress of the school year, I really want to only one thing - to rest and be really, really, ridiculously good looking. To just hang out with my homies, drink orange mocha frappuccino, dance in the pouring benzin. 
Here are some things are hopefully going to happen this summer, because I´m set on being a lazy slob and being held publicly accountable is the only thing that can stop me. 




To Do
Start crocheting a tote bag
Get better at French 
✶ Learn at least one new time
✶ Engage with more French media
✶ Read Asterix without a dictionary
Star learning Japanese again
✶ Master hiragana 
✶ Star katakana
✶Get to A2
Go camping
Hike some archeological sites
Design my next tattoo
Get more work-appropriate clothing

Try
Calico hair
To find the best strawberry matcha latte in Olomouc
At least three new matcha latte flavours
Tiramisu anything from Starbucks
To be nicer to costumers
To finish that crochet vest
To finish any otome game that isn´t demo
To update this blog 
To get more into pixel art
To enjoy the mandatory unpaid 3 week archeological excavation ߹𖥦߹

Watch
More films by Satoshi Kon
At least 25 mandatory films for my finals
Freaks and Geeks
Akira again
My Own Private Idaho with my sister
I should get over my irrational avoidance of Akira Kurosawa´s films
Anything Wim Wenders

Listen 
Actually get into Paganini, he doesn´t deserve the shallowness I approach him with
Some new nu goth bands
Fresh pop-punk acts for 2025
Brit-pop outside of Oasis and Blur
Any v-kei band that started in 2020s
The entire Offspring and Simple Plan discography to get ready for their concert

Read
Next 200 chapters od Berserk
Neighbourhood Story
Tore Renberg´s books that aren´t The Man Who Loved Yngve
Naruto again, this time hopefully to the end
All the literary sources I listed for my bachelor thesis
All books about my 1930s Czechoslovak cinema I can find (still for my thesis)
Farewell My Concubine
Anything related to archeology, I really want to pass those exams too
More fanfics

There also some things I would like to avoid, but actually making good decisions wouldn´t be very Derek Zoolander of me. 



I think that those are quite achievable goals. Let´s hope for the best! 

I´m writing this from my work. I didn´t even know I had a shift today, until my boss messaged me what would I like for dinner (we get food from nearby restaurant). I had to double check our shifts and actually, yes, I had to get my ass from my family apartment to the Olomouc ( ._. )"". 
I´m really lucky he worked today, no one else would check me. I really need to be more carefull, I like this job and would hate to underperform/get fired.
Also, I finally know where I´m gonna dig this year! Because apparently all of as descent from millionaires, we have to do three weeks of unpaid labour at archeological site of our professor´s choice. I´m probably going to Valašské Meziříčí. There were not a lot of other choices, and this one was closest. because I will need to work throught this. Three weeks off work isn´t really possible for me, so I´m gonna be an archaeologist during the day and receptionist during the night. When am I gonna be a well rested person? 
Only time will show. I will possibly die, hehe.

So until next time! ( • ᴗ - ) ✧

Wednesday, 11 June 2025

Musical Spotlight; Fun While It Lasted; The ultimate break-up (and down) band

 Fun While It Lasted is pop-punk through and through. From their unmatched energy to whiny vocals, it would be hard not to get at least a little bit angsty.
They remind me of that one long summer between high school and college. I was young(er only by two years, but dear God, what a significant two years). Life was one big party (and night one big club), I was at the top of the world and desperatelly in love. Of course, I got my heart broken and I wish I discovered those guys back then - crying during Double Broken Heart would have been so cool, as I got my little black heart broken twice during that summer. By the same guy. 

(This way, I listened to My Chem for few weeks straight, which is still cool, but  I didn´t have to be such a stereotype.)

FWIL has a strong presence on social media and you should follow them before they become next Blink-182, which is a subtle foreshadowing. They succeed at the most Gen Z discipline - being relatable. I feel like most of us have friends just like them. From the environment they film at to their dynamics a demeanor, they feel real. Quite lived-in, so to say, which are words that can be used for apartments, skinwalkers trying to asimilate into human society and public personas. 
Here is probably kicking in my inner producer and capitalist, but I have troubles believing anything I see at social media. However, I enjoy the music, I enjoy the presentation and therefore I believe what I see. Even when I compare it to some Czech "pop-punk" projects (mostly just pop with tiny bit of angst and one guy witth guyliner) that try to look authentic FWIL manage to win. 
Why? They really look like they have a lot of fun together. 

Few weeks ago they released their biggest single yet - Tom Delonge. It was very well received, as you can see from all the positive comments. I will not spoil it for everyone, but the lyrics are super fun with all the nostalgic references and I really liked the cover art - it stays true to the DIY punk roots, as its made by band´s friends. 



My top track is definitely Double Broken Heart, as I alluded before. It has all my favourite aspects of pop-punk - I can relate to it, it´s a little bit off-standish and there´s this rawness that cannot be duplicated by anyone who is not on fully on it. 


I think it´s great that bands like this are still playing somewhere - it shows that the scene is not dead, and that if someone whines about lack of interesting music in 2025, they are just not looking for it. 
To sum it up, if you crave something authentic to kick you out of bed before lecture, or before 12 hours grave shift followed by exam from subject you barely even remember atending, this might be the band for you. 



Thursday, 5 June 2025

Dear God, EXAMS and sad films (╥_╥)

 Hiii! (ノ´ з `)ノ
College is a fun thing. I literally begged to get in, and now I beg to get out. I study the only thing I ever wanted (and one useless minor I have been regreting since day one) and that still isn´t enough. Well, it would be, but working while studying wasn´t the best decision. Nevermind. 

Just going throught it


I was in Paris for a student conference and man, do I feel like that would make a fun article :D. I represented my university as best as I could, which meant that my phone broke down on day 3 so I spent rest of the conference running around trying to fix that, and that I just did not attent day 4. And day 1 was only for council members so I did not represent that much. 
This was more about the journey that about the destination I think :D.

Ohh, and I finally got the Karma solid parfume from Lush. I could not stop thinking about it since London. Now that I have it, we are practically inseparable. My twin sister got one too, so we are finally matching in something. But maybe it´s too much, thanks to the rich, spicy scent the whole neighbourhood knows when we are both home.  

As for my social life, right now it´s either my work at the hotel or studying. And since I work nights, my days often look like this: sleep - study - nap - work - sleep.
How pathetic does this sound? ( ╥ω╥ )

On the flip side, I completed almost all of my courses - except for Czech Cinema 2, The Migration Period + Roman Empire and Philosophy. To be fair, I should have copleted Philosophy two days ago, but since the test was online and I did not attend any of the lectures during the semester, I did not realize that I will need a password. One that was written in the classroom where all of my classmates were. 
Next time, I will know better, but it still pisses me off. Firstly because I was so dumb, and secondly because this could have been my first semester without second tries.
Once again nevermind, I would probably have to repeat anyway, I spent way too much time learning for my other subjects. 

Also, my studying may not be the most effective one, as I watch movies as the background noise. I can just never make myself study otherwise :D. 
Usually I watch my old favourites, but sometimes new gems. So far, I have seen Brockeback Mountain (again. And as always, I was unconsolable afterwards), My Own Private Idaho, which is AMAZING, I can´t believe I saw it only now, What´s Eating Gilbert Grape (my summer ultimate) and few others because they were giving Americana. Right now I really don´t want to go the US, but I still like imagining myself on the road trip few decades ago. 
After my Americana kick, I went for French and Chinese cinema - I will forever love Farewell, My Concubine. It hurts in all the right places and it´s magnificent to look at. Next on my list is Happy Together, even though I do get the feeling that I will cry my eyes out. 
For the French part, it´s Belmondo time I guess. I always saw myself as Alain Delon or Jean Marais girlie, Belmondo was my pops old (and new, he still loves him) flame. I think that I´m aging, because I started to enjoy Belmondo and his movies way more than I thought. Of course, I grew with some of his flicks, but only now I´m starting to actually appreciate them. 
He is just very charismatic and so much fun. I even wanted him for my bachelor thesis, but sadly none of our teachers wanted to supervise it, so I will write about Adina Mandlová instead. It´s still gonna be fun, but come on, Jean-Paul Belmondo. 



Let´s not judge me based on my taste. Right now, I´m vibing with Pierrot le Fou, not only for it´s anarchistic approach to plot, but also because I´m visiting Côte d'Azur soon. 

As for music, it´s a lot of gulu gulu right now, after reign of Oasis, The Kinks and Cat Stevens. I really just need a vacation, I guess. 

Do you have any cool quizzes? I work 12 hours shifts and it´s starting to get really boring, so anything is appreciated :D.

Take the quiz at emocowboy.neocities.org

Sunday, 13 April 2025

My Favourite Make-Up Tutorials (Beginner Friendly)

Hi! (⁠◠⁠‿⁠・⁠)⁠—⁠☆

I love experimenting with make-up. It gives limitless possibilities to styling - same little black dress can be seen as Pamela or Siouxie, depending on the make-up choices and accessories. 
That being said, I get bored rather quickly. My obsessions go through seasonal phases - it's winter? Red and gold! Spring? Green and blue!!!!
You probably get the idea. Right now, I'm going through my blue and green phases again and those tutorials helped me so much. I usually look for tutorials on Pinterest, but I´m starting to seriously think about downloading TikTok, it seems rather useful. But also like a blackhole for time, so who knows. 
These are very begginer friendly (I hope :D) and I feel like I would've loved them even back in high school. (And we don't really talk about my make-up in high school.)
They also offer a lot of space for experiments and changes, as you can see with my interpretations.

You will need: eyeshadow of any colour, neutral/brown eyeshadow, iridescent powder, kohl/eyepencil,

1. Use some of the colourful eyeshadow under your eyes.
2. Use kohl in corners, draw slight wing
3. Add some neutral/brown around the kohl
4. Add a touch of iridescent powder


I like starting with additional base of neutral eyeshadow, one shade darker than my skin. I usually use the iridescent powder only on inner corner of my eye, I like that look better. I also use A LOT of it.

2. Cute Colours by @marthalynnn


You will need: eyeshadow of any colour, two darker shades of neutral/brown eyeshadow, shimmer/glitters

1. Use lighter neutral around your eyelids
2. Use darker neutral around your lashline 
3. Use bright eyeshadow under your eyes
4. Add a touch of simmer to your inner corners


I love doing this with red. It´s quick, easy, but I feel like it still makes a statement. If you want to look cute for your classes, but don´t want to wake up at 5:30, this can be done in few minutes. 



You will need: kohl/eyepencil, make-up remover, small brush

1. Start with the middle thorn
2. Continue with the lower thorn, draw them along your eye line
3. Use bright eyeshadow under your eyes
4. Use a little bit of kohl on your upper lashline
5. Draw a line in your inner eye corner
6. Smooth the thorns out with small brush, use a remover if you need to do so

This may seem hard, but it doesn´t need a lot of products, and once you get it in your hands, it´s rather quick. It´s also very catchy to the eye - one of those ideal make-ups if you want to stand out, but don´t want to put in a lot of work. 
I don´t actually have a photo for this one, but trust me, it´s great .D. And it looks great with colour, too. 



I had an awful lot of work, lately, but that´s a good sign :D. I´m working on two films right now, one for university, other with friends, and I´m trying to work on my final paper. I still have one school year to write it, but it doesn´t feel like enough :D. 
Today we went to terrain with archeologists. There was supossed to be a depot. Turns out it´s probably a metarulgic workshop from Urnfield culture which wasn´t seen at this arrea before. I´m excited to see where the research will go!
To celebrate, our proffesor brought a grill and some cheese for all of us. There wasn´t a lot of students, only 5, but there were some research and university workers. Czech archeology has a tight knit community, which is nice to see. If film didn´t go well... well... no. I probably still wouldn´t want to do it, but it was fun :D. 

See you soon!

Thursday, 10 April 2025

Amsterdam in 24 Hours

Hi! (*˘︶˘*).。.:*♡

Living in Europe has many perks, for example, you can get to a lot of places relatively cheaply by bus. This is a lifesaver for everyone who hates flying, like me. The biggest companies are Flixbus and RegioJet, at least in Czech republic.
I don´t know if I should thank Beyonce or their rivality, but RegioJet is known to be cheaper and have a lot of sales, on Halloween, Christmas and on Valentine´s day. This year they had 1+1 free ticket for the lover´s day, so of course, I called my sister. 
It´s not like you could do this for every destination. There was Paris, Munich, London, Rome, ... luckily, we knew exactly where we wanted to go. For the longest time, I have wanted to see Amsterdam. I was even supossed to go there at least thrice, but destiny always decided otherwise. 
My sister had only one failed attempt to get there, and that was only three months ago at the time. We originally wanted to go there between Christmas and New Year, which turned out to be too expensive. 
It´s not like the city got any cheaper, even with two free tickets, so we decided to spend only one night there, and because the buses didn´t have the best arrival times, it was between 14:00 and 14:00. 
Or was it? 


We departed from Prague at 23:00. We live nowhere near our beautiful capital, so we arrived few hours sooner (just in case) and went to my favourite bar, Al Capone. Their drinks are filled with cheap alcohol, and there are almost no free chairs, but that place is so cheap, and you can choose from at least 50 cocktails. And the atmosphere is something else. 
Then we had a looong walk to Florenc, my least favourite bus stop in Prague, because we hoped it´s going to help us sleep better. And because we didn´t want to waste precious money on public transport.
I slept terribly anyway. My body is more or less used to sleeping in bus, but it still strugles sometimes. It was during those dark hours that I realised oh no, we are already late. 


Our plan was very tight, as you can imagine, and both me and my sister were rather bummed. I know, I know, this is what you have to expect when traveling on land. Still, we were both tired and hungry, and in a new city: We headed towards our hotel, or, to be precise, botel. 


We spent our journey there joking about it not being there. I suspected that if that was the case, Denda would probably drown me. Luckily, the boat was there, exactly where it should be, with it´s tiny cabin. My sister couldn´t resist the need to film it. 


We shared both toilette and bathroom with other guests, but there was a free breakfast, so we were rather excited for that. 

Our first real stop was the Mouse Mansion. Both of us were dying from hunger, but we decided to stick to the itinerary and the itinerary said that we are gona eat later. That may be the reason for cleverness of our conversation, all we could talk about was how beatiful Amsterdam is. We were, and still are truly charmed. 
When you close your eyes and think of Amsterdam, you probably see brick buildings and canals. This was exactly our experience and I loved it. I didn´t expect everything to look so pictoresque, but it did.




Mouse Mansion was so cute. It was a giftshop more than anything else, but it has such a cute exhibition with plush mouses just living their lives... when I first heard about this stop, I thought it´s gonna be about the comics, Maus. There couldn´t be greater difference. 

After this, we wanted to go Tony´s Chocolonely. As you may have noticed, we don´t care about something being a tourist trap. We want to have a good time and if good time means no locals and a lot of fellow tourists, so be it. Vice versa can be applied too. 
What we were not prepared for was the queue. We decided to ditch this stop and go to the next, Van Stapele. We have been salivating over their cookies for a few weeks at this point. Cut to us, seeing another queue.


So off we went, hungrier by every minute. It´s not even like anything stopped us from eating something else.

Next was Ripley´s Believe it or Not. We grew up on the show, so we wanted to see this place. At first, it seemed expensive, but it was worth every penny. Not just because it has four floors, I think, with interesting exhibits, but also because my sister got scammed on every corner. 
For example, silent disco booth. Denda has this habit of spending money on the dumbest things, Of course, when she saw the booth where you could pick any song, dance a little and no one could see you, she was delighted. 
First, she accidentally picked a terrible song neither of us knew, then we got stuck and then we found that that actually, you could see everything from outside. 
At least we got our coolest photo.


This museum offers a nice mix of gross and interesting. There was a necklace from human teeth, figurines and stories of strange animals, such a calf with eight legs, vampire hunter´s kit and Maddona´s panties, and many, many more. It was definitely worth it. 
My favourite moment was the yelling booth. It was probably not named like this, but you were supossed to scream there to see how loud you can get. My sister went in, I stayed outside. We could see each other through door, so we were able to commnicate with signs. I understood that she wanted to know if I can hear talking, and I truly couldn´t, up until the moment she started yelling. It was quiet, but loud enough to be heard all around to booth, and she looked so pathetic while screaming from the top of her lungs. I almost died of laugher.

After this, we headed towards Chinatown, but we had to get fries on our way there. Originally, we wanted to go to Fabel Friet, but we found this window with way better prices. It was right next to the church, so we could admire the architecture while waiting. 


At this moment, we had only three stops left - Chinatown, Red Lights Museum, and OBA, a library with beautiful view. Since it was already dark, and OBA was right next to our boat, we decided to move it to the second day.
We enjoyed fries quite a lot - I´m not sure if it´s just some trend, but they had truffle mayo everywhere in the city, and it was so delicious. 
Then we saw FEBO. It´s a franchize with cheap local variations of fast food, kept hot and fresh in vending machines. We had to try it, not just because of the price, but also because we saw some of the meals for the first time. 
We got Frikadel (later I found out it´s related to carbanates) and possibly the best fried cheese-based food (I have forgotten the name since :() we ever tried. The meals were delicious, even for the price and the fact they were in glorified vending machine. And we didn´t have to speak to anyone.
Next time we are in Amsterdam, I think we will eat in FEBO everyday.

After this, we went to Chinatown. I´m pretty sure I always say this, but I LOVE Chinatowns. I was sooo excited when I found an apartment in one during my Erasmus. The one in Amsterdam is quite small, but great and full of restaurants and cool shops nonetheless.


As the dawn fell the city got even prettier. It´s already an architectonic wonder - with all the matching houses, the canals going around them and so many interesting people. Now there were lights too, all of them radiating warmth. 
Even thought the streets looked wonderful, we didn´t pick the best time to visit Red Lights District. There were a lot of tourists, but also costumers and they made us feel a little bit missplaced. We went to Red Light District Museum anyway. It tackled not only history of prostitution, but also it´s bussiness side and day to day life of prostitutes. There were many walls with their thoughts and stories - some heartbreaking, some almost inspiring. 
My favourite part was wall filled with confessions, both from customers and workers. I wish I actually remembered some of them, but I guess you will have to see them yourself. 
After this, we were rather tired, still from the bus, so we just got some (rather overpriced) stroopwaffels. They were so good we remembered that local McDonalds had a stroopwaffel ice cream, so we got our last bit of strenght together and went to the closest one. 
It´s just a McDonalds, but the ice cream was so good! I feel like you can never go wrong with caramel.
After this, we went to Carrefour for water (both of us view grocery stores as a cultural monuments, therefor love them while abroad) and off to our sleep we went.
The boat was rocking on the water, camly sending us to sleep even faster.



I swear to god, we wanted to wake-up to see the sunset over the city, but we were just too tired. Instead, we woke up around 7:00, quickly dressed up and went to breakfast. Since it was in the price of our botel, we decided to fill ourselves. There were pancaces (unusually thick ones), mapel syrup, some local bread, very strange peanut butter, ... we knew that we had a lot of foodstops that day, Amsterdam is a foodie heaven after all, but that didn´t stop us. 
We went there first, but the small kitchen of Vita Nova quickly filled with other guests. It was interesting to hear all the conversations in so many languages. 
It rained outside a little bit.


We wanted to take a photo with the skyline together. We weren´t successful. 
Our first stop was OBA library, with beautiful view over city. Someohow, we didn´t take pictures. The only downside was that since it was so high, and we tried to get there by escalators, it took us forever. 
It was wort it, though, as you could see if we didn´t have one collective braincell and took a picture.
Then we were supossed to go to Vondelpark, walk throught it, see the giant Miffy statue nearby and then take a look at Rijksmuseum at least from outside, but due to the time it would take we had to skip it. Next was Jordaan, with it´s bohemian atmosphere and many little museums. We enjoyed this walk, not just because of the beautiful scenery, but also because we knew what was at the end of it.
Saint-Jean. A bakery. A brand. An amazing snack.


Both of us got pistachio cruffin. Normally, we would both get something else and share it, but both of us wanted this one, and was well-founded. This little thing was full of flavour, actually tasted like pistachio and it was just so filling we couldn´t finish it in one sitting. I was still looking for almost pain au chocolate, one of my many obsession, still with no luck, but this made me at least thing of other baked goods.

After Jordaan, we went to see the Negen Straatjes, supossedly famous pictoresque streets filled with boutiques. As we wondered throught them, we realised we still didn´t have any souvenirs.
We knew what we wanted, mostly food and drinks, and we saw all of the ideal options in Carrefour day before, plus some magnets, but that´s the funny part. Non of the other shops had the stroopwaffel bear we wanted to get our dad, the Monster we don´t have in Czechia that our bestie wanted to try or the cheap stroopwaffels packages :). By the end, we got most of of our gifts near bus station, and we still didn´t get enough, because later we regreted not getting some waffels just for us, too.
We made our way throught the streets. Sadly, we didn´t have time to go throught all the shops, so we continued to Oersoep tunnel.


It´s a beautiful passage decorated with sea motives. We really felt like part of another world there. It felt quite luxurious.
Nearby was Van Stapele, the cookie shop we skipped the day before. The line wasn´t too long this time and we were really curious, so we sacrificed some time. 
It was worth it. The cookies are milk chocolate, generously filled with white chocolate, and baked right in front of costumers. It would probably make for very stressfull part time, but it also made wonderful piece of dough. I don´t think I have ever had better cookie.
By this time, it was already 11:00 and we didn´t have anough time for both of our next stops, Albert Cuypstraat and Foodhallen. Between the streetmarket and foodmarket, the one with food won. 
We really are pittless when it comes to food. 
We had to walk for 40 minutes to get there, but at least we got out of the city centre. It was still charming, even in the more industrial parts of town.


Some people may advise againist visiting Foodhallen, but was worth it for us. It was definitelly overwhelming - there are a lot of food stalls, not a lof of space between them, and a lot of people. (Duh, we came there during the lunch hours.) At the same time, it was full of scents, colours and food options that I have hardly seen before. For a small town kids it was a heaven.
There are more parts of the Hallen, some with boutiques, some with market, but we wanted to try another piece of local cuisine. That why we got bitterballen with truffle mayo and dim sums of many flavours. 
For some reason, both of us craved them, even if they are not strictly Dutch. 
We ate them rather quickly, as we still didn´t have souvenirs and our bus was leaving in only about an hour. Both dim sum and bitterballen were very tasty. Bitterballen were way more creamy than we expected. Non of us like meat that much, so it was a pleasant surprise. We left the place very happy.
As we were walking towards bus stop, I noticed a bakery. I didn´t have any luck with my almost obsession before, but something told me thiw will be different.
It was. They had an amazing almond pain au chocolat. I really wish I could recall it´s name, but I can´t even find it on maps. It was this millenial looking place near our stop, but that applies to majority of nearby cafes and bakeries. 
What I like about almond pain au chocolate is the variety. In France, they were usually a little flat and had this slightly burned taste that made me go crazy. In London, I had one one that was fluffy to a crazy degree and had an almond paste with the chocolate filling. 
This one was giant, fluffy, and full of chocolate. 

Even thought both of us had great time during our stay, we still had some stress ahead for us. It was because we had to buy gifts right before we left (that was a success, thanks to nearby Carrefour), but because we had no idea where we should wait for our bus.
Sloterdijk station is rather big, and even if you find the part specifically for buses, there is not guarantee that you will find yours. 
We had run to get to our RegioJet. I don´t think our bodies were prepared for such a rush of adrenaline after all the food we ate during the day. Luckily we had enought time to calm down - we were supossed to get out of bus at 4 AM tomorrow. 

You may wonder, with such a long journey, there had to be some stops at least for toilettes. No. There was one toilette in bus and if you didn´t like that, you just have to accept your fate of not peeing for few hours. 
I´m not a fan of this. I don´t mind the bus toilette, but I still think it would be better to make some stops. 
There was also a coffeemaker. One was at our first bus, too, but it was broken, so all I got was a hot water :(. 
This time, I got us hot chocolate and cafe late, both of which proved little problematic due to my previous lament. How I said, I had no problem going to the little bus WC, but Denda did, so she had to suffer for 16 hours. 
This time, we got to Prague on time. The main station was luckily open, se we could wait there for our train, with other passengers, and the fact that since we went with RegioJet even back to our home, we could go to Regio Lounge just an hours later. We were especially excited for the free ice cream. 
Little did we know, the machine was broken. 

Our journey ended here, but it left us with love for Amsterdam and a burning need to see more of it. It also left me with a lot of coursework, since I left during busiest day of my college week, Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday.

Have you ever been to Netherlands? And do you enjoy traveling by bus?

See you soon! /(^ x ^)\

Sunday, 30 March 2025

New Releases that Hunt My Dreams

 Hi!

It´s quite some time since I last wrote about my newest obsessions. I wonder what have past few weeks brought us? 
(Besides a lot of stress and some more burnout.)

First of all, there is Coeur à la Crème Princesse Dress Hat by Baby the Start Shine Bright.

You can pre-order this long-veiled beauty right now and get it right before Halloween! Due to it´s size it´s probably going to be neck-damaging, and I can imagine chasing it during the windy autumn is not going to be too much fun. It does not seem too practical, but when has that ever make something less stunning? 

You can choose from sax, off-white and baby pink. I like it because it screem glamorous diva.



It´s also a part of new series, Cœur à la Crème Princesse. I don´t really enjoy them so far, but they all of you the oportunity to own a brand stick again.



My dislike of the series doesn´t mean that Baby didn´t manage to struck a chord with me. Have you seen the Little Kumya Earrings


This is probably the most adorable thing I have seen this week.

There´s also Siesta mini-series. Since I have started working night shifts, I think about my sleeping schedule so much more. This may be the manifestation of my issue in a ruffly form.


This looks like the power nap uniform and it comes in black, too. As someone who prefers black clothing, this makes me feel incredibly pleased.


Alice in the Pirates did it´s best too. They released Ginger Doll Dress Set which brings some edgy 2000s fantasy anime energy back into the subculture. 




Too bad it´s Shanghai exlusive. On the other hand, while I like the vibe, it looks lowkey bad. I don´t like the bodice, and designers probably felt the same way, hence the cape, and the material is little too shiny for my liking.
But I really like the concept. 

My next pick is Alter XXXX by Moonrise Theater. They are a Japanesse indie brand with mostly old-school inspired pieces. They try to keep their products fresh through patterns and materials and this is, at least for me, the height of their innovation. 


I really like a good cross piece, and this feels very distinct, even though the cross is rather delicate and not the main focus. The shine of the fabric also works for me - it reminds me of leather or PVC.

I feel like it would look cool with Distant Melody Milkmade Camosiles. I check this indie brand a lot to be honest.

It´s giving Nana I fear. This is the absolute summer staple and I want to congratulate everyone was able to purchase it, as they are already sold out.

Another brand I have been enjoying lately is Marble. Their gloomy, aristocatic aestetics speak for me. While I can´t imagine wearing them to my work, they would make an amazing uniform if I was a bored aristocrat that might also be a vampire, which is a position I aspire to. 


It was hard to choose just one, or any one, because I´m little confused by their listings. The winner is Blouse-type OP with Gothic Diamond-cut Tie. I think that it´s easilly the best sewn dress on my list. I enjoy the materials, the contrasts between tie and the rest of the dress the cut, and the drama. While waterfall skirt may be a choice, I feel like it adds to the longing feeling of this piece. 
I´m not sure if the buttons are functional, but they tie the tie nicely to the rest of the dress - this way, it looks more put together with occasional shine. 
There are so many details on this OP, which is what made me fall in love with lolita in the first place. This is easily a dream dress material. 

That´s going to be it for today, have a nice evenings all of you!

Monday, 24 March 2025

Can You Actually Buy Lolita in London? The Lolita in London Scam

 Hi! 。.:☆*:・'(*⌒―⌒*)))

I just came home from London (and I´m already planning my next visit there). Among many other must-sees, my group went to Camden. It wasn´t my first visit there, so I was already excited for Humble Crumble, Cyberdog, food market and many, many shopsof various colours and decoration. What I didn´t really anticipate was new shop, right in the heart of the market - Lolita in London

My expectations weren´t too high - I thought that the quality is going to be at the same level as Sai Sai. And it was way smaller than both London and Paris Sai Sai, so I didn´t even expect any variety. The thing is, while there was very nice shop keeper, there was no acutal lolita. You could find very cute larme skirts, some pieces just perfect for jirai kei, but as for the titular lolita, there were just some headdresses. They were shiny enough to blind an aircraft pilot and you could see the hanging threads from miles, so it was a hard pass eventhough they cost only 12 pounds. 
I didn´t buy anything, but it did stick in my mind. I just had to Google it. 



Upon inspection, I was obviously happy I didn´t find any main piece there. The quality is awful, the prices actually hurt me and the usage of word lolita killed my entire family and set my flat on fire. Obviously, Lolita in London is run buy resellers, which makes you wonder why didn´t they pick better pieces to resell. 
Even on those four dresses, you can see that the term lolita is used very loosely here. The silhouttes are plain wrong, the materials don´t work and I think that at least the pink "dress" is a replica?
It doesn´t really take a pro to disect everything wrong there.

Here are some of my favourites.


Okay, I have to say, this one isn´t even that hideous. You can hear the swooshing sounds this JSK probably makes, but it´s one of the better ones. That still doesnt qualify it for the price tag of 317 euros.


Sometimes, a bad coord can be salvaged by petticoat. Not in this case. Lolita in London does sell a petticoats, which begs a question why did this go so wrong? Are their pettis responsible for this?


If anyone feels nostalgic for Milano, this is the perfect solution.

I think it´s obvious that the owner doesn´t care too much for the lolita fashion. That makes the fact that they are trying to organize a tea party even weirder. Their invitation didn´t get much traction - it´s safe to say that London lolita community doesn´t care that much for them. 
I feel like this fact speaks for itself - in this higly digital world, a physical shop would normally be something cherished. There are some limits, though, and Lolita in London flies straight under them. 

Other than lolita, they carry surprisingly nice catalogue of beauty products, clothing and accessories. While 22 euros may be too high for butterfly top from Shein, it´s not that bad for London. They even have surprisingly nice wigs. They wouldn´t that bad, if only they dropped the lolita from their title. 

Have a nice evening!
See you soon! /(^ × ^)\

Tuesday, 11 February 2025

Another Tartan Coord

Hi! (⁠ ⁠/⁠^⁠ω⁠^⁠)⁠/⁠♪⁠♪

I just realised how little of my coords get posted here. The truth is, I can't take a good selfie to safe my life.
It's something I'm trying to work on, but as you can see, it's still a long run. 


One of the things that puzzles me is how to show details in a cute, nonchalant way. Here, I'm trying to show tiny bows I put in my hair.
They didn't work with this coord anyway, so I put on my crochet headdress. I think it worked nicely (⁠。⁠•̀⁠ᴗ⁠-⁠)⁠✧.



I only did my eyeliner for the morning, semester just started so I had to go to a lecture. Feeling cute definitely helped me with the despair of archelogy so early in the day. 


Coord rundown 
JSK: An Another Angelus 
Headdress: Handmade
Everything else: Offbrand


Sunday, 9 February 2025

Simply Obsessed

 Hi!
I´m finally able to prove that I did not, in fact, cease to exist. It´s just the fact that we had exams season. Exams never caused me any frustrations, due to the fact that I was unapologetical nerd during both elementary and high school. It just felt like the informations are coming to me on their own. It was similar during first two semsters of college too, but oh boy. 
Maybe it has something to do with the fact that I spent first few weeks of semester in Paris, or that I didn´t go to lectures that much, but I felt like climbing a mountain before almost every exam. For the first time in my life, I came close to academical all nighters and to make things worse, I´m still haunted by dreams of failing and being kicked out of school (×﹏×).
And it´s only worse, because when I don´t dream of failing at school, I dream of failing at work. Today, I dreamt of sucking at a bartending gig I left SIX MONTHS AGO. 


Anyway. In 9 days, I´m visting Amsterdam with my sister (Flixbus had 1+1 ticket Valentine deal), and next month, we´are visiting my favourite city, London. My sisters best friend is a fan of unusual plushies, so she wanted to visit Jellycat flagstore and fetch her a gift. 
She wanted to hype me up a little bit, so she showed me their best product. The only thing I really need. Something that I should have known sooner. 




Timmy is a turtle, a very grumpy one. That´s something so irresistible for me. I already have an army of turtle plushies, I always wanted a breathing one too, but I don´t even have a real home right now, so I couldn´t subject any alive, intelligent form of life to that. 
Also, pet turtles are expensive. And so is Timmy, but do I care? 

"Timmy Turtle needs a friend to cheer him up – or someone to have a good grumble with! This soft, sturdy guy has a green textured shell, embroidered fudge fur and squeezable feet. Don't be fooled by the face – Timmy gives surprisingly good hugs!"
- rather charming introductions from https://eu.jellycat.com/

If you feel unsure about bare, naked Timmy, wait till you see his cute little outfits.




There is something so british about these two Timmys. They look like extras from Hercule Poirot episodes. Tell me that doesn´t bring you any happiness. 

Of course, you might argue, those doesn´t seem like the most practical purchases. Jellycat has your back - and bag too. I´m saving money for Timmy bag. 


Does it suit my style? Not at all. But it makes me feel as if all those hours at work were worth it, somehow. Also, at least according to Reddit, a lot can fit there. There is also a key chain Timmy, and I would absolutely get him too, if I didn´t feel like my financional state would never recover.


I hope I will be able to get the bag at one of my trips!

Other than those capitalistic cravings, I´m quite well. I´m working on another film with my friend, once again as a producer. More people are coming to me for their projects, and it´s a great feeling. On the other hand, there´s a lot of stress, too. 
Tomorrow school starts again, and I will need to let my higher ups know that I´m finished at the cheese shop I´m working at right now. For some reason, they have the worst clientelle and one of the worst managers I have ever met. 

Pro tip - if almost none of your part time workers sticks around for more that two months, maybe it´s because your store manager sucks. If you´re the store manager in question, try not sending threating passive agressive texts well ouside working hours. Or days after the workers last shift, when they already feel safe. 

See you next ime!

So close... yet so far (crying about my dream dress)

 Hii! Have I ever mentioned how much I LOVE Český Krumlov series by Innocent World ? It feels like yearning for a place you remember fondly....