Tiny haul, new perspectives and new nails ♥️🖤

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Today was absolutely stellar! I catched up with my friends from Aurora over shopping spree. 

I have wanted a lip oil since forever - I used to love lipsticks back in high school, but they proved to be a little bit impractical. While I plan on coming back to them, lip oil feels a little more manageable. 

This one is a nice plum colour. I got it in Hebe, which is this Polish drug store. It has m better prices than Rossman, Teta and D&M and it carries a lot of korean cosmetics. I didn't get anything korean, instead I went for Ziaja aloe face toner. I will give you review later, but I heard only nice things about this vegan brand, so I'm already excited :D.

I try to be more careful with my choices of cosmetics - for example, my only perfume is Karma by Lush. It reminds me of 70s.

I also managed to add something to my CD collection. I'm planning to grow it as much as possible. I think I'll make a separate article fort this and my discman, I got it on Vinted for a great price :D.

TNT is a music shop that I've frequented since high school - there is not a lot of brick stores with CDs and LPs in Czechia so it always felt cool here. If you ever get to Ostrava (why, I might ask) you should check it out here. They have really nice vinyl collection too - I found Cat Stevens, Cabaret, Jesus Christ Superstar and more here.

This time I got Dookie, Three Cheers for Sweet Revenge and (What's the Story) Morning Glory. Those are three of my favourite bands. I really want to get Definitely Maybe next, but I'll be happy with anything else. I also want to buy The Now Now by Gorillaz, but it's too pricy everywhere. 

Other than that, I have shitton of Beatles and some classic rock and metal from my dad. 

We also went for dessert and matcha. I don't think I have ever tasted strawberry matcha latte as good as this one. The coffee shop is called Laskomilo, it has really cosy vibe. The desserts were great too.

Both of my friends are PhDs at this point and they are in Aurora council. I wasn't sure if I wanted to continue with Aurora, which is this site of partner universities in Europe. Actually, I knew I would love to, but between my final year of university, production of Scream for student theatre, thesis and work, I wasn't sure if I had enough time and energy. 

I do. I really want to continue in representing my university. also, next conference should be at Reykjavik and I really want to go there for UPOLs money :D.

Other than that, I'm realising how much I need a gap year. I plan to either volunteer abroad with European Solidarity Corps, go on Erasmus+ Internship or both. 

My lovely friend Klárka, who also happens to be my bandmate and part of mcrmy, made me those MCR inspired nails. They are her first set for anyone who isn't her. I love them :D.

I'm keeping them for my Italian vacation but I already love them so much.

I'll have three shifts in  row now BUT I'll finally get to see my favourite couple, Matěj And Maki this Friday. We're going to gym, wish me well. 

Also, my sister made muffins while I was away. She told me I can get one in the kitchen. To her horror, I unwittingly devoured uncooked one ಥ⁠‿⁠ಥ.

How's your summer? 🌞 

See you soon! Bye

They Made Me Work For Free (Indiana Jones Didn´t Prepare Me At All)

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I have to say, this was not my first archaeologic excavation or my first unpaid internship. It was however my first unpaid archaelogic excavation. These manadatory three weeks of hard work kept me off the internet - I woke up at 6 AM dug up to 15:15 relaxed a little bit, fell asleep and repeted. 
I tried to go out during those days, but fot the first half I was sooo dead I kept being unable to even crochet properly :D.

The site is near my apartment, I actually worked there for a few days during last summer. Most of the other workers are my classmates from department of history, which is nice. For the first two weeks, we were digging this bore. I think we barely got under recent layers in my first week.
Since archaeology doesn´t really care about your gender and our only guy in the team was kind of a dick, me and Daja ended up doing a lot of work over our strenght limits. My hands and back still hurt from 7 consecutive hours of shoveling and I will forever be afraid of wheelbarrows. Have you ever tried carrying one that is full of dirt up the hill on a wooden "highway" that keeps slipping under your boots? That was my highway to hell. 

Both of my soles gave up during the first day. I didn´t have any better ones, so instead of trying to make it in my go go boots, I decided to see how long I can survive in them. They are getting a viking funeral, they reliably carried me through the whole thing. 

We were right under Náměstí republiky, one of the busiest tram stop in Olomouc. The quiet peace we had was stark contrast to life above us. None of those people knew that they are only few meters from such an interesting site.

We manifested rain a lot. Pair of my classmates was lucky enough to have rainy week, and since our boss counted it as day of practice, they really only dug for two non-consecutive weeks. We had a lot of cloudy days, but it was never bad enough to end earlier than 15:00, which isn´t much of improvement.
I still had to go to work during this and let me tell you, you definitely should sleep between several hours of physical work, 12 hours night shift and another bunch of physical work. 
On our last week, we decided that we don´t want rain anymore - it only made everything harder. I felt like an earth worm in wet dirt when it rained just a little bit.

Our last week was spent under our original square. The chef told us the we can decide what to do and she will just consult. Both me and Daja panicked a lot. We needed some assistance. 
I wasn´t really sure what we are looking at. There was a fire pit a lot of bones, but eras were readable only from ceramics and none of them felt distinct enough. Then, in our last hour, another supervisor came and explained that we are at the 10th century AD and this is Great Morava. It felt amazing - we were the first people to stand on this ground after 1000 years! (Funilly enoguh, first bite of 21st century this ground got was pop punk.)

It wasn´t all bad. I got buff down there, and I realised what I actually want to do once I get out - read, party and start a band. I already did all of those during last few days, but I was also excited to finally have time and energy for writing. 

This was one of the hardest thing I ever had to do for school and since I couldn´t choose a date I was unable to go to vacation both with my family and my friends few days later but well, at least I´m closer to my diploma. 

How are you guys enjoying summer? And what was the weirdest thing you had to for school?

Edit few days later: I totally forgot to mention why we were so pissed off and unmotivated most of the time. While we didn´t get paid, our university did. The reason why we can´t choose our own excavation is probably because they are only sending us to places that will pay THEM directly for our labour. We lost at least 600 EUR throught this.
Our university isn´t even transparent - I had to do some digging and investigation to find out and comfirm my suspicions. They have been doing this for quite some time, and no, quality of our education doesn´t really reflect this. 

Slightly Incomplete Ranking of All My Part Time Jobs

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My friends always tell me that I´m probably the most over-part-timed-worked person they know. I didn´t really believe them, until I started writing all of this down and well, seems like I don´t have commitment issues only in relationships. 
I always yearned for financial security and independence on my parents, which is why I landed my first summer job right out of elementary school. I do think I could have done better choices, because I feel like I could have been more at peace if I didn´t go throught all of those toxic enviroments, stressfull tasks and demanding costumers. On the other hand, if I didn´t  have them, I would´t be able to afford my lifestyle. 
I´m ranking those from worst to best. I chose only jobs where I actually got paid and lasted more than a day. Also, a lot of those positions are from unnamed Western Theme Park. I hope you won´t consider it cheating - I did a lot of work there and I really want to talk about it more someday. That´s why I´m leaving out some of the other odd jobs out.


Kitchen Staff in a Pension
Through high school, I spent most of my time either commuting or in classroom, so the only part times I would get were seasonal during summer. This was my third one. Stationed in beautiful forest of Šumava, it had everything I needed - accomodation and few hundred kilometers of distance from my hometown. Someone once told me that person is never as dumb as at 17, and I was probably the dumbest 17 year old around because I didn´t really think enough to ask the working hours beforehand. It was at least 16 hours two days in row, then two days off. It doesn´t sound as brutal, but it was killing me. The job was very stressful, the pension was in a middle of nowhere and there was something deeply wrong with me already, because it didn´t take too long for me to start breaking down. Again.
It was supossed to last one month. That one month was July, which ended with big three days long festival where all of us had to work for about 20 hours a day. I knew that would probably kill me, so I faked death in my family and fucked off. I didn´t feel alright for the rest of the summer.
That was my last kitchen job and start of realisation that I might not be alright :D.

Bistro Staff  at WTP
I have been trying to outrun my hometown since I was about 5, but summer of the unnamed Western Theme Park (WTP) have been my first succesful attempt. It was me, 16 y.o., and this one friend I don´t talk to anymore against the whole world. I wish there was anything else, because this sucked so much. I was supossed to work at front desk, however they employed too much of us (3 students total), so I was placed at this bistro instead. And a slushie shop. And souvenirs. I did basically everything. I would love to say that I hated every second, because it was terrible and to this day a great topic of conversation, but somehow, I was having fun. Not at work - this bistro was the first time I had to take crying breaks. Not only because there was neverending line of tasks and customers, all of this in the most unhyginienic enviroment, but it was also very toxic place and the chef hated me.
My drinking started here I think. 


Pizzeria Staff
My first legal job! It was at this Czech pizza chain and the chef was my aunt, but that didn´t mean I was paid well. Or at least minimally. Even in 2025 their hourly wages are under Czech legal minimum, so you can imagine that it wasn´t much better in 2018/2019. I think I gout around 3.5 euro hourly?
At least I didn´t really have to do any of the cooking here - I washed the dishes. cut vegetables, marinated meat, but mainly worked with pizza dough. It was boring, but it lacked the stress of all of my other kitchen jobs. My sister and our best friend still work here, and they still hate is as much as when we were 15.

Slurpie & Pop Corn Seller at WTP
This was my second job at WTP. First day was interesting - I came there, chef showed me the bare minimum and half an hour later I was already teaching newcoming staff. I didn´t have to anything other than tap the slushies and serve pop corn, which wouldn´t be so bad if it wasn´t for the customers and lack of hygienne.
Did you know that pop corn in theme parks is usually never thrown out? Even when something gross, like a bee taking a dive, happens. I had to take out that bee, which wasn´t even dead yet, out with a box and then continue serving like it never happened. I couldn´t even change the stash.
As for the slush, suprising amount of people are going to argue about colours of their drink. And when I say argue, I mean yell at a 16 y.o. cashier until she shows them that really, raspberry flavour can be blue. 

Cheese Seller (both at Christmas markets and off-season at mall)
Selling cheese at Christmas markets is nothing like selling it in the mall. It´s stressful and hard at the markets because you´re going to freeze for 6 - 13 hours, all of this with neverending lines of costumers, but it´s also rather unsuprevised. If you fuck up, it´s between you and your god. Also, you won´t have to do anything illegal. 
I was selling cheese at the local Christmas markets for two years before I landed gig for the same company at nearby mall at the end of 2024. First of all, the manager of that one store was, and probably still is, trigger angry Trump loving homophobic bitch. Second of all, you wouldn´t believe how much time I had to spend washing the mold off our cheese. Yes, when our cheese got moldy, we had to scrub it off, and if it got really bad, it was treated with vinegar. That´s it. There was really no wasting.
I should have reported them, but then I wouldn´t see a penny and money was tight at the time. 
Also, I have never been treated worse by costumers. 

Shopping Assistant at H&M
Alrighty job. Terrible environment. I worked there right before college and I could already feel the toxicity from miles apart. The thing is, it wasn´t even issue of management, but of all the other part time workers. Also, it was at Ostrava and while I didn´t mind commuting for high scholl (at least I thought so, now I can´t magine waking up at 5:30 everyday ever again) I realized how much I didn´t want to spend summer between Ostrava and Karviná, so I left H&M and stayed at my other Ostrava job, at second hand warehouse.

Girl for Everything at this one specific Festival
I love festivals, and after all of the volunteering I did, I was more than happy to land a paying gig. I took a week off from my bartending job (it was the summer of 2024). That day, I left bar at 6 AM, crying and ready to die, luckily my hysterical sobbing woke up my roommates at the times and both of them were supportive enough to actually get me to the train to Ostrava. I was supposed to bartend at this event, however when I came I did everything but tend the bar. They sent me cleaning, to do debaras, made me do my best as hostess, sent me to wash the dishes, etc., and that was only my first day. This festival of everything visual, from books to fashion, lasted for five days. There was not a lot of haggling about shifts - they asked me what days I can come, I said all of them, but I didn´t really expect them to make me work through the whole thing. 
Well, they did expect me to come every morning for more than 12 hour shifts, with no food guaranteed and only 30 minutes of lunch break - or theoretical 30 minutes. As soon as some higher up saw me sitting without food, I go yelled at for fooling around. They continued to exploit me, and the rest of the staff. Some people actually walked out and I´m not suprised - one girl cried on my shoulder because she got her nails done and bought this really cute black dress, all for this job, and she got sent to kitchen. 
Marketing of this whole thing was really botched too, so there was probably more workers than guests.

Front Desk Assistant at WTP
I got to sit in a shadowy room, but people yelled at me a lot, usually for WTP´s return policies. I din´t hate this as much, partly because I knew that they would be able to beat me through the small window. I could choose the music that played there somethimes. 

Souvenir Staff at WTP
I had to stand for hours because sitting down would be "disrespectful". Other than that, it was just boring. No one yelled at me here.

Ghoul at Haunted Castle at WTP
This sound kinda cool but it was actually very boring. Owner of WTP got his hands on this old chateau and ran with it. It resulted in the lamest Haunted Castle ever. Everythng was super cheap and I was the only living part of exhibition - which meant that I got a cape, a mask, laid in a coffin and then jumped out on costumers. I didn´t get rest of the costume or anything, so if I left visitors to linger on me enough they usually noticed my bright pink sneakers. 
Also, when elevator didn´t work, I had to guide people down to the exit. Which meant that I scared them, left them to run for a few meters to the end of the room, where they realized that t he elevator is closed and then I took off my mask and explained our situation. It was exactly as awkward as it sounds. I (or we) got lost the first time I had to guide them out.

Air Brush Tattooist  at WTP
I don´t really mind children, really. I do mind their parents. If it wasn´t for them, both this and looking after trampolines would be alright. This way, there was always someone needy, in a hurry and outright insulting to their offspring for their choice of tattoo. I was suprised by how gendered both colours and shapes can get. 

There was also surprising amount of drunk adults wanting sprakly butterflies. I love that for them. 

Edible Bugs Seller
During the Advent of 2023 I held three jobs - bartending, selling cheese and this. How did I manage this and school? I didn´t sleep. It got so bad once when I had 12 hours with cheese, another 12 at the bar and then this that I just laid down on the floor and slept. And this wasn´t some little shop, this was a stall in the middle of the mall. I risked getting fired or something, but I was really very tired. 
Other than that it was fun watching people tasting the bugs, mostly daring children and their horrified parents. We didn´t get a lot of costumers, which was fine with me. 

Warehouseman for a thrift store
Other than the fact I had to commute for more than 90 minutes, this was a fine job. I didn´t have to communicate with costumers, I could try on anything that catched my eye and the other workers were a lot of fun. Going through the donations could get a little gross, but that´s to be expected. 

Music Journalist
This would be way higher if I didn´t have to go to Brno or Prague for all the concerts. I really liked getting deeper into the music bussiness and having a chance to see a lot of interesting bands for free, on the other hand, it also got me into some dangerous situations. While I still struggle to feel in danger, I know that I shouldn´t spend so much time on train stations (and other standed places) alone at 3 AM or something is actually going to happen to me. Also, I stuggle with my writing style and deadlines a little too tight, which is why I´m taking a break right now. 

Archaeologist
How many jobs did I hold between 2023 and 2024? Well, this excavation was definitely one of them. I had a few shifts during summer. It was a lot of physical labour, but I liked the collective and it was always so exciting to actually find something. Human settlement in Olomouc is a very old one and it was fascinating to get into history of town that has been so welcoming to me. I´m coming back this summer - for 3 weeks of unpaid internship. I didn´t have much choice, it´s required by my school, but it´s probably going to be alright.

Bartender 
This is something I have very difficult relationship with. I struggle with moderation and mood swings, which can be a big problem when I have access to alcohol. It was not just about the access here - on the first day they told us that we will not handle this job sober. Six months later, I got into habit of drinking more or less daily and another colleague adviced me to get out as soon as possible, because no one managed to get out after one year here. 
I was in danger often, but there was also this sense that someone was always looking out for me. 
Also, I worked for a very popular student spot. I got to know a lot of my friends there. This resulted in some great stories. It also threw me as close to mental breakdown as I have ever been. I´m not sure if the waves of unrelenting anxiety I´m so prone of started here, but I definitely think I should have talked to someone about this. I still should, actually. 

Hotel Front Desk Clerk
I´m here right now. This is my third graveyard shift in a row, but I´m going to get a week off after this. Other than the fact that shifts are 12 hours long and that I sometimes get little sleepy, I love this job. I still get those waves of anxiety, but I´m managing throught them way better. Mainly because I feel like I´m doing pretty good job here. 

I´ve got a new phone. Again, it´s my third this year, but the first I actually had to pay for, so it´s not that bad? Hopefully? I have never been this bad with anything, I hope this one is gonna make it for next few years.
Olomouc looked rather pretty on my walk back home yesterday, so I made some photos. This phone finally has worthy camera.

Lately, I have been conspirating a lot about Oasis and My Chem. Not in a weird way, more in a desperade hope of European tour :D. The only concert I have planned right now are Offspring + Simple Plan in Prague and I´m sooo excited it´s not even possible. 
For some reason, concerts give me the worst FOMO. 

See you soon again!

So close... yet so far (crying about my dream dress)

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Have I ever mentioned how much I LOVE Český Krumlov series by Innocent World? It feels like yearning for a place you remember fondly. And I really do remember Krumlov specifically with a great fondness, but I will not bore anyone with that one time I was forced to work 16 hours per schift in a restaurant at 17, with no way to run away. Or that one time a boat run me over. 
(I swear, I do have non-traumatic memories.)
Even besides that, it´s just georgeous and so specific. I don´t think there´s any dress that similar to this stylisation of print and mix of colours. 

It´s no suprise that many Czech lolitas yearn for this dress. And right now, it´s on Lace Market. For quite an affordable price of 90 Euros. And it´s it in Germany, which is just a few kilometers away. Why did no one buy it yet?
More specifically, me?

The cut and colourway of the piece in question are actually my favourites. The lila sky with empire cut make it so dreamy. Sadly, I don´t really have anything lila. Honestly, I don´t really feel comfortable in those colours. 
Alright then. I can coord it with white and reds, I can live with those. 
Well, how often would I actually wear this dress? Pastels make me look washed out, and I have this thing with dark clothing going on. I cannot stress enough how much I don´t like wearing light colours. (Well, it´s not like anyone is forcing me.)

Second of all, I love the cut. I really do. I actually have something similar - my Argyle Check OP by BtSSB. It´s a waistless sack, but luckily it has waist ties, which make it work rather well in my opinion. 
This dress isn´t very tit friendly. From what I heard (the seller is in our local Discord group and answered some questions), anything bigger that 90 cms is not going to fit into the boob area, therefore ending up in the waist. 
I hope I´m not the only one who finds this to sound rather pregnant. For past few (and next few too, probably) years, I have been balancing just around the 90 centimeters. I can take a risk and hope for the best, but I don´t really want to. I would just probably end up sad.
It would be terrible situation for the dress too - while any article of fashion can be art I do feel like clothing should be worn. It would be terrible to just keep it in my closet while slowly tranforming into Smeagul, unable to actually style in any interesting way. 

I´m little bit sad anyway, but at least I saved myself some money and did something more productive with them. I ordered the Bodyline Vampire OP that kept following me on Vinted.

It´s cute, the cut looks amazing and it´s perfectly withnin my comfort zone. I will probably continue to yearn for Český Krumlov OP (in Naruto chasing Sasuke kind of way, because it is going to be dramatic), but in the meanwhile, I will look like a gothic princess. 
And if that isn´t the point of living, then what is?

See you soon!
Bye!

Ultimate Derek Zoolander Summer List

 Hello (˵ ¬ᴗ¬˵)
 
For past week, it finally felt like spring (unusually log one this time) was finally over and summer started. I don´t like summer that much as a season - it´s too hot, bugs and cyclists everywhere, but I love it as a vibe. Everything feels possible in summer. 
With all the stress of the school year, I really want to only one thing - to rest and be really, really, ridiculously good looking. To just hang out with my homies, drink orange mocha frappuccino, dance in the pouring benzin. 
Here are some things are hopefully going to happen this summer, because I´m set on being a lazy slob and being held publicly accountable is the only thing that can stop me. 

To Do

Start crocheting a tote bag

Get better at French 

✶ Learn at least one new time
✶ Engage with more French media
✶ Read Asterix without a dictionary
Star learning Japanese again

✶ Master hiragana 
✶ Star katakana
✶Get to A2
Go camping
Hike some archeological sites
Design my next tattoo
Get more work-appropriate clothing

Try

Calico hair

To find the best strawberry matcha latte in Olomouc

At least three new matcha latte flavours

Tiramisu anything from Starbucks

To be nicer to costumers

To finish that crochet vest

To finish any otome game that isn´t demo

To update this blog 

To get more into pixel art

To enjoy the mandatory unpaid 3 week archeological excavation ߹𖥦߹

Watch

More films by Satoshi Kon
At least 25 mandatory films for my finals

Freaks and Geeks
Akira again
My Own Private Idaho with my sister

I should get over my irrational avoidance of Akira Kurosawa´s films

Anything Wim Wenders

Listen 

Actually get into Paganini, he doesn´t deserve the shallowness I approach him with

Some new nu goth bands
Fresh pop-punk acts for 2025

Brit-pop outside of Oasis and Blur
Any v-kei band that started in 2020s

The entire Offspring and Simple Plan discography to get ready for their concert

Read

Next 200 chapters od Berserk

Neighbourhood Story
Tore Renberg´s books that aren´t The Man Who Loved Yngve

Naruto again, this time hopefully to the end

All the literary sources I listed for my bachelor thesis

All books about my 1930s Czechoslovak cinema I can find (still for my thesis)
Farewell My Concubine
Anything related to archeology, I really want to pass those exams too

More fanfics

There also some things I would like to avoid, but actually making good decisions wouldn´t be very Derek Zoolander of me. 

I think that those are quite achievable goals. Let´s hope for the best! 

I´m writing this from my work. I didn´t even know I had a shift today, until my boss messaged me what would I like for dinner (we get food from nearby restaurant). I had to double check our shifts and actually, yes, I had to get my ass from my family apartment to the Olomouc ( ._. )"". 
I´m really lucky he worked today, no one else would check me. I really need to be more carefull, I like this job and would hate to underperform/get fired.
Also, I finally know where I´m gonna dig this year! Because apparently all of as descent from millionaires, we have to do three weeks of unpaid labour at archeological site of our professor´s choice. I´m probably going to Valašské Meziříčí. There were not a lot of other choices, and this one was closest. because I will need to work throught this. Three weeks off work isn´t really possible for me, so I´m gonna be an archaeologist during the day and receptionist during the night. When am I gonna be a well rested person? 
Only time will show. I will possibly die, hehe.

So until next time! ( • ᴗ - ) ✧